I did it! I am so excited I finished this project!

It is not perfect, but I am excited that I sat down and finished this project that I have been wanting to try. Tell me what you think!

This was made from a men's dress shirt that I got at goodwill-Keira picked it out. I need to make a few more before I get it perfect, but it was a neat project and I look forward to doing more.

FHE thoughts

Well today I get throw up added to the list. I don't know why I even try to schedule things sometimes. I am going to have to cacel the Yak n Sak this month and I feel bad about that. It just seems like this month is going to stay crazy. I have so much to do today and I am avoiding it by writing here. I was thinking about how depression can be so overwhelming at times and that it is hard to find the beauty when things seem so gray. I know that I have been there and I hate to see others stuck there. We watched "The Testaments" for FHE this week and it hit me as I watched the Savior's face that He doesn't want us to suffer alone-it doesn't matter if it is a physical ailment or an emotional one. He suffered for each individual that lives on this earth. He understands our weaknesses. I have seen this movie before. I have even related several examples from the Savior's life taken from this movie-but it really struck me when the father brings his son and asks Jesus to heal him. The Savior asks if he has the faith for this son to be healed. The father says yes, of course you can heal him. The Savior gives him "the eye" are you sure look? And this sweet father says "Lord, help thou my unbelief". I have thought this father's life was challenging raising a child with such a disability and he asks for the Savior's healing power. I thought about all of the little things that I need to be asking for help so that I will better understand my children and know them the way Jesus knows them. Heavenly Father entrusted me to raise them and I need to ask more often-Lord help thou my unbelief" so that I will trust more in Him. I need to remember just how much I am a daughter of God and the great worth I have so that I can be an example to these girls and my son. And most of all so that I don't become blinded by the things of the world and not see the Lord's miracles in my own life.

My Circus

This past week has been a long one. My allergies have been really bad so I have been very unproductive. But I did have a great day watching the twins on Friday. Thanks Kelsey for letting me! Kenna has another sinus infection and so does Kelsey. I think I was at the pharmacy three times last week. I will laugh at how much money I will have to spend once the kids grow up and I am not spending a fortune on all of these meds. We also got another ortho consult that confirmed it looks like $8-10K for Kyle and Kelsey to have braces for 30 months. Yeah me! And people wonder why I can't go to the gym or get my hair done or pedicures or all of the cool stuff I wish I could do. But to be honest-I don't miss it. I only get to have these guys home for a short time and then they will be gone. I will have another 30 years by myself-so I am no too worried. Besides-they are pretty great. I know I am biased because they are mine, but it was so sweet yesterday to watch Kyle and Kelsey fight over holding two babies at church. Kyle just oohed and awed over both of them. He will be a good dad some day.....Kelsey just needs to make sure she finds a rich guy who can pay for the large family she will have. She is such a little mother-I am sure once she is 12 I will never see her because she will be babysitting so much! :)
Kyle was being pretty funny this weekend. He kept cracking us up. I would post the pictures, but he would kill me. Let's just say if he wasn't a member of the church he would be a great Chipendales dancer! He had some great one liners and I almost pee'd my pants. He and Kelsey were really cute this weekend. Kelsey played awesome as a defender! She was trapping the ball and they were not getting it past her. She almost scored a goal on one of her kicks from midfield. It was pretty cool.
I am looking forward to summer vacation and all the fun we are going to have. I hope that we can have some BBQs with friends often this summer.
I also have to add I am humbled by the power of fasting. I know it is a powerful thing-I have seen miracles happen. But I had kind of lost my focus on what it means to do it with full purpose of heart with real intent. During that time period I thought-of yeah-here all the contention begins, but after I concluded my fast-I was humbled to see the power of the Lord work on the hearts of those in my fast. I hope those moments will continue to be consecrated as I do my best to feel the fire of God. Because I believe that He loves us so much-we just need to go to Him always!

my projects

Keira on her way to kindergarten round up May 7, 2009.

We went with Tyler Stansel and she loved it!

Manners Banquet for Kyle. I helped out that day and it was a blast!

Kyle and adam Petersen-one of Kyle's best friends!

the kitten I found in the middle of Eagle Springs Parkway-we have adopted him and his mom. I never thought we were cat people, but the girls just love them and so does Kyle! We named him Rhino after the movie bolt b/c of the mark on his side.

The picture of the kids on mother's day because without them I wouldn't be a mom!

Here are the blankets that I made for baby Jaithan. He is doing better from what I hear. I also made some cute girl ones for Michell-so I thought I would post them here to show that I do stay busy. These miss the swimming meets, and baseball games and soccer games that keep me busy as well as I should have a picture of Dr. Shaw's office, but it was cool that the paper printed my letter to the editor about my favorite people in the area. So I am a published writer! :) But here is what's been going on lately.

I am amazed at how fast time goes by. I can't believe in just a few months we will have been here for 2 years. It doesn't seem that long and we are slowly getting settled. The older Kenna gets the more I seem to get done-so there is hope that I will have a clean house and laundry done and everything organized by the time she gets to kindergarten! :) haha! I wish I was a efficient as my friends, but I am getting better and I look forward to no more diapers and bottles. I never thought i would feel that way, but going out to dinner now is a pleasant expereince and so I look forward to all the new adventures we can do as the kids get older. I had the sweetest mother's day cards from my kids. I will copy them here in my next post for reference to my journal-not to brag on myself. I love them all so very much and am grateful for all the ups and downs this journey of motherhood had brought me and I am sure there will be many more. I am so grateful to all of my friends and I really have found joy and peace. I couldn't help but think as we sang count your blessings on sunday that I have so many and my friends are among my most treasured along with my family!

Chaos!

I can't write much-but I am wanting to just add life may be a little chaotic right now-but I am glad that I have all the ups and downs. I struggle with whining about the storm clouds but I love th sunshine and am trying to remember that I will get all of my projects done-just not always on my time table! Have a great day!